I’m not really sure how one goes about recovering from being raped. My hope is that there is a recovery process but I’m not sure what it is. I’m not one to attend a support group; I’ve never gotten much out of those things. Everyone else’s problems seem so much worse than my own. I feel like I just need to get through this on my own.
My biggest fear is that no one will be able to love me again. Can I ever trust a man again? Can I bear to have a man touch me ever again? The thought repulses me at the moment.
I feel like I should be doing something but I can’t think what it is. It’s like living in a constant state of confusion. I am barely able to function; I just sit and stare a lot. Answering an E-mail takes a lot of concentration and words don’t come out any easier typing them than thinking them or speaking them.
I just want to be me again. God help me.
About Me
- Baring My Soul in Public
- Anytown, United States
- This is a public blog in which I will expose secrets about myself that I have spent a lifetime burying, covering up, wishing away, denying... Some things will seem like little secrets you might wonder why I bothered to keep hidden. The reasons for keeping some of my secrets will be obvious. I'm not here to justify my feelings, explain them or anything else. I simply want to purge and then examine what part of my psyche was effected by them. Then I want to put them behind me and move on.
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