It's been one year since that fateful day. My life has changed so very much since then. I still can't focus or concentrate on anything for very long. I can't hold down a job anymore. I've moved 5 hours away from my former home, I'm living with strangers and know that every day brings me one step closer to having to go back to living in my car. Therapy has begun at long last but progress is painfully slow and I know I will never be the same again.
Positive things have happened as a result of the rape too, I love where I'm living now, my skills in my favorite past-times have increased and I have goals and aspirations that I wouldn't have had otherwise. Unfortunately, the negative aspects of the rape far outweigh the positive. I am neurotic, jittery, I startle easily, I'm mistrustful of others, and I suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Major Depression with Anxiety Disorder and Agoraphobia. I will likely be in therapy for the rest of my life.
I cannot concentrate on anything for very long, sometimes not long enough to finish a sentence. I have a major problem with short-term memory loss which has created a whole new set of problems. :-(
Rape is an ugly, horrible, nightmarish thing.
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It saddens me to read this I wish for you to be able live your life free and happy. What was done to you robbed you of so much while this person goes on with their life. I pray for your continued success going through this and pray that someday soon you will feel that the positives outweigh the negatives.
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